vivilee's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- institute Can't sleep. Been really stressed out in general. I kind of blew up at work today. I can't really pinpoint why I hate my life so much. I feel so moody and hateful a lot of the time. Everybody annoys the hell out of me. I can see their every evil. And I hate them for it, I can feel and taste and smell everything bad they say. I want to stop seeing these things. But then, when I do that, I become a naiive airhead. Nobody appreciates the work that I do, they say that I'm slow. I'd like to see someone else pump out shit any faster. I fucking hate them. I hate them all. I hate everything. I can't sleep. All I feel is hate. I hate Christmas. I hate my family. I hate Gordon. I hate Mary. I hate Jimmy. I hate Ying, her husband, Bill, Natalie, I hate them all. I hate the stupid customers. I hate them all. I don't know how to fix this hatred, this anger, this extreme depression. I want to die. I'm too depressed to exercise. When I try, I just feel stupid. I really need to go to a psycho ward or something. I think I'm going crazy. 5:44 a.m. - 2002-12-21 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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